Embrace D.U.R.T.I

Okay so yesterday, I'm feeling fat?? What the hell? Preperiod is such a roller coaster for me! Every month it's so predictable...I hate everyone eqaully!! Just kidding..sort of....LMAO!!!! I havent put on any weight to speak of....I have carbs in me and am filled out a little. and have still ate pretty clean and am back on the fish diet because Im three weeks out from the show. All those doubts still somehow wiggle their way into my thoughts. I wont be ready.....ready for what I ask myself? Im ready now....whack!!!! Ahhhh the fun lil mind games we play....The mental game of this sport is the most challenging. Just keep going....no matter what! Youve set a goal now follow through is always what I tell myself. Thats the payoff in the end for me.....I did it! and I enjoy the journey to get there....even the times like now when I feel fat.....I know I dont look fat but my brain seems to be floating in fog a bit and I feel like I have this thick layer over me. Im irritated at things that normally dont phase me....my usual motto is .................is anybody dying? anybody bleeding?..Nope then we are all good!! Its so true about sweating the small stuff...and really in the grand scheme of things its all small stuff!

The trick is when I start to wind up in my mind to do alot of self talk and come back to the ground....

well id better get my butt in gear....waffles down....coffee down.....now get ready to go get your game on. Wonder what kind of challenge Dean is going to throw at me this morning???? I can't wait actually.....I get excited thinking what is he gonna throw at me today???? Although this time of the month I battle with exersice induced severe...did I say severe cramps??? That sucks!! Well seeeeeeeeeeee.............stay tuned!!!!!!