Integrity......I'd like to call someones bluff......lol!

Integrity? This industry and the fish bowl that I swim in sometimes, is soarly lacking in this department!! Its such a challenge sometimes to always take the high road instead of ripping a strip off someone for being so dam ignorant! Self serving, Saran wrap...so plastic!! Building empires of fluff...soarly lacking in substance!!True character shines through.....sad:( morally bankrupt....wow!
And then there are those who are full of integrity and value! They glow with good intentions like beacons of hope! I hate it when the Saran wrap trys to take advantage of the beacons....
This lil mosquito will be shaken up the industry norms as usual.....stay tuned

Speakin my truth....

Evertime I come in here, its been a long time since Ive written? How the heck do peeps find the time to sit all the time and write about their daily stuff? Hats off to them. Maybe I have poor time management skills?...LOL!!!

So many thiings have happened that I should have been writing about ....writing is therapy for me.
Now remember reading this blog its mine.....so its my truth and my truth only. If you get offended...well you should think about that? Are you living yourz?
Maybe its you Im reffering to.....LOL!

Where I have I been the last couple months? Did the BC's...whoa got my ass handed to me on a platter...... I have done four different shows..came in four different ways and still sucked ass?? This show was very dissapointing to me...felt like I had a carrot dangled in front of me and then in the end thats all it was???? I have very high expectations of myself and others.....I hate it when someone lets me down....myself the most!! Seems I've been taken advantage of once again...this fish bowl is full of self serving liars......grrrrr! So dissapointing!
I'm way to nice..............always wanting to pay it forward,,,to my own detriment sometimes! Its ok though, Karma is a BITCH!!!
The show was run like a well oiled machine however and that was great! BCABBA could use a lesson from the WBFF though on prizes for athletes and glitz and Glamour! WBFF has that one in the bag!
Speaking of WBFF,Im not a fan of their PRO CARD give away though and I think they cheapin it by giving it after one show????
You can't tell me that someone recieving a Pro Card after one show is right up there with Monica Brant, Mindy Karuk or Emily Sterling? Plaaaaese!!!! Not worth the paper its written on and it's an insult to these amayzin women who seriously are PRO's in this sport!!!!
Not to take anything away from the hard work and dedication that goes into everyone's prep, but in my eyes....YUR SO NOT A PRO IF YOU DID ONE SHOW and got your card....LMAO

I was happy with LegareWear contribution to winners bags for the BC's! We gave a hoodie to all the winners! I've had lots of positve feedback from peeps that won them...that is awesome!


What else is goin on in the CinnamonGurl world....being followed around by a TV camera is weird...I'm seriously rethinking this one! I wanna be rich, not so sure I wanna be famous? I want LegareWear to be famous, not me? I have enough peeps talk about me who have never met me....I find it quite humourous!! Although It would seem I can effect change if I have a giant forum to do it in! Mosquito under a magnifying glass.....LOL

Femsport Camp is going amayzing, our team is 20 strong! Friggin Durti Gurlz! These woman are one of the most inspiring groups I have ever been involved with! Holy shit!
The comradary is wicked! We have lost sum of the troops along the way, and they are still supporting. My mom has broke her leg in the process...this woman is the Epitomy of Durti! 65 and still kickin ass and takin names!! My inspiration....I wanna be like her! She had to have a walker to come out of the hospital, they werent letting her out till they knew she could get around...I was laughing! Im like ummmmm? You dont know my mom......she was doing tricep press' on the walker!! Ya get out of here!!! She is on the mend...and WILL BE BACK NEXT year to rip it up at Femsport!!!!
The gym has been a thorn in my side lately....seriously who quits on facebook and via text? This younger generation is so irresponsible.......I am shocked and appauled by their behaviour. Parents of them are just as bad! Wow... is all I got for that one!
Who tells their kid that time theft is acceptable...doing your resume and another job on my computers while im paying you is time theft! Moms says to me well I do resumes at my work all the time......I say well your just as irresponsible as your daughter, pretty sure your employer would like to know that.....click..LMAO...she hung up on me! Oh the fun!!

Time is ticking by and LegareWear is off to LA...swag bags for the daytime Emmys. I dont think that one has hit me yet?
HUGE!! I've made some big mistakes along the way I realize....'Ive gotten involved with the wrong people...self serving and not "LegareWear" serving. Take take take take...and in the end its just about promoting themselves and getting free shit? Sponsorship of some individuals has proven a complete waste of money? Live and learn....live and learn! Lets take alll the free stuff and when it really counts there no where to be found? Phfffffft! JOKE!!!
Excuses, pass the buck....just own it! I would at least still respect you then.....weak weak weak!

Ok end on a happy note....cant divulge too much here but....Apocalypse Personal Training will be working with some True Proffesionals soon. NHL players.......I love Karma!!!

Okay peeps stay Durti.......I know I am! HardKORE Durti!!!

Stay Tuned....Durti Gurlz are gonna be rippin it up at FEMSPORT August 27th.....Queen Elizabeth theatre in Vancouver!!!

The Road to the WBFF is paved with walking lunges!

Okay so I'm five weeks out from the Calgary WBFF show. The last two weekends have been totally inpsirational and lit fires under my butt! The BCABBA show is Kelowna was good. I volunteered back stage for the first time,, I just felt like I wanted to give back to an organization I have been a member of for a long time. The shows would never happen with out all of the volunteers that make it all come together!!

Then this last weekend I worked back stage at the WBFF show in Richmond at the River Rock. Seriously I've said it before and I will say it again... the WBFF definalty out does every one in terms of glitz and glamour! The athletes are treated like super stars! I love that about this organization!
They do the best job at promoting and gettin the exposure out there! The prize packages are awesome and the sponsorship deals that come out of it are tremendous! Paul and Allison do a great job! Allison is hilarious with catching peeps as they go by making sure there make up is just right etc etc....LOve that!
I had the pleasure of working back stage with a tightly run ship by Annette Milbers...everyone was taken care of!!
as you all know I've always been one to voice my opinion! Love me or hate me you always know I speak my truth:)
So my road this time around to the WBFF is paved with many walking lunges!
Gonna bring a better package this year! The ripped freak and I have a plan of attack! So looking forward to the "BODYByBrandt" team hittin the stage in Calgary! Love this group of peeps!!
Look out cowtown...things are about to get hot!!

Thoughts on turning 46... age is a state of mind!

What do i know? First off holy crap batman...46? When i was in high school seriously I thought 46 was ancient?

I've been on the planet for 46 years..what have i learned?
"The Bodybuilding lifestyle" has saved me on many occasions!I have done many a battle on the gym floor!

#1. Just because someones gets off the planet doesn't mean the world stops. Life goes on regardless, there is no time to catch your breath you just gotta push through....The pain of losing someone never leaves, it just gets more managable.Teaches you to cherish moments......yu never know?
A split second can change yur life FOREVER! As much as i wanna buck this system sometimes....... it is what it is! Tell people that you love them even when yur mad at them...lol!!!!

#2. Everyone has a story....humans are a fickle species.Sum people never learn. I am challenged by people who are victims and think life owes them something? Liars and cheaters are a big no no in my books to...and if you are a coward.... well you and I are going to have words!
The truth will set you free...first it will usually piss you off, emabarass you, hurt someones feelings, challenge your thinkin, make you see what your real intentions are..etc etc....just DO IT!!!! Living with intention and authenticly is hard work in a world full of bullshitters!...or unaware of themselves people......I live with intention and I do it D.U.R.T.I
seriously id rather be "not liked or hated" for who i really am than loved for someone I'm not. I like myself.In fact I love myself....

#3. Its definatly WHO YOU KNOW.Surround yourself with people who are like minded. Positive people who have your back. Get rid of and house clean people that are energy suckers, coat tail riders. It could be family...it could be long time people in your life. There has to be a reciprical relationship...I am grateful for the amayzin people in my life....an like i said im grateful for the trash that i took out! Im especially thank ful for the honest people in my life....say it to my face!

#4. Embrace your lessons...cause guess what until you learn them they will be presented to you in a million different ways until you GET IT....GET IT?
Growth is inevitable..pain is optional!

#5. If your talking about it...do something about it! you are eithier part of the problem or your part of the solution...the end!

#6. I'm not a sheep....conformist without commitment maybe? I have always marched to my own drum....did this drive my parents nuts?...OH YA! Are they proud of me now? OH YA!! Things we learn by watchin our parents...thanks Dad!

#7.I am grateful for every shitty thing and person that has ever happened to me! I've learned so many valuable lessons from each...I have some pretty serious scars and they all have good stories! So I say thank you.
WE ARE ALL THE SUM OF OUR EXPERIENCES.

#8. Friends are few and far between...and like every other word its all how people look at what that means to them. I'm pretty attatched to the word loyal.....come hell or high water! Nuff said.

#9. The most successful people are adaptable....I am adaptable.

#10. I'm not into Drama unless its in the movies.

#11. I will always have commpassion and feel pity for people less fortunate than me. I will never let them confuse kindness for weakness ever again.....does this make me a bitch? I'm okay with it if it does!!

#12.Sometimes I have a hard time owning that I inspire people? It conjures up my own insecurities in myself. I guess thats why people tell me I'm down to earth. Feet are firmly planted....most of the time! Be in the moment......

#13. I have HIGH expectations of myself and others! People tell me this is a problem..is it? I dont think so! I think its their problem! LOL!!

#14.The only mind I can read is my own.

#15. Love is a VERB.

#16. I am a spirtual person. I think skulls and things are full of the wisdom of the world. Some peeps say that is morbid.....I say worshipping a dead guy on a cross is morbid!! Dont get me wrong...I believe Jesus walked the earth..I think he was a D.U.R.T.I guy too! I once talked to a minister about the whole vows thing in a marriage ceremony...I had trouble with the whole honour and OBEY thing? I said when he starts acting like jesus then Ill obey....LOL.

#17. Sometimes you gotta just see the other persons life movie...try looking through their filter and lenses.

#18. If someone yells at me I dont understand it better?

#19. Failing because I was to scared to take the risk did more damage to my mind then trying and failing ever could do! Everytime I step out on that stage,,,it reminds me of this. Feel the fear and do it anyways...be fealess not careless!

#20. People will tell you who they are...believe them

#21.I have horns that hold up my halo:)

Never gonna change me........

There was a man who saw a bee floundering around in the water. He decided to save it using his finger, but the bee stung him. The man still tried to get the bee out of the water, but the bee stung him again. Another man nearby told him to stop. But he said: "It is in the nature of bees to sting. It is in my nature to care. Why should I give up?" Don't give up caring. Don't give up doing good. Even if people around you sting. -Unknown

Stayin Durti...........

If there is fire...lets burn sumthing!!

It's been quite some time since I've made time to write it all down! Lots of stuff going on as usual....brain is smokin!!
LegareWear is on the rise....thoughts become things! So many kewl opportunities have presented themselves!! This year is going allot awesome!!

Fempsort Camp is rockin, Figure bikini workshop is hoppin who I am hosting with the one and only "Mrs Leigh Brandt"...one of the most humble and beautiful peeps I know! This gurl rockz! I'm so stoked for her this upcoming year!! The Olympia stage awaits for sure!!

Reflections today:
No matter what kind of setbacks I've had I have never allowed that inner voice of doubt to control what I do.....
I've acknowledged it and said to myself...what am I suppose to be learning from this? I say fear/doubt point out the challenges and then get lost...doubt has no influence on my actions! Feel the fear and do it anyway!
Failure is not an option...it never has been for me! I don’t care if something takes me a lifetime to achieve; if that's the goal...then that’s the goal!! Defiantly I have had to tweak and detour, weave and bob sometimes...oh and defiantly make sure I zag instead of zig at the right times....LOL!!

Doubt and fear have served as teachers and as motivators to look at all the possibilities on how I am going to achieve my goals!

Lots of peeps fail to achieve their goals, not because they’re lazy or lack self-motivation, but because they were not “fully committed” to succeed,,, so they gave in to those doubts and fears....probably right close to when if they would have just hung on a lil longer and told fear to go Fu*^*&^&k itself they would have achieved their goals....so lesson here is ........that doesn’t mean yu succeed rite off the hop!!

I can’t think of a single goal that I have not achieved once I set my mind to it...why? Because I have a Durti Spirit....and an unshakable commitment to its completion!!!No matter what hell or high water came to detour and side track me.
Like I've said before I can paddle a canoe and if there is fire...well HELL LETS BURN SUMTHIN!!

I read a story recently about the ancient Greek warriors who were both feared and respected by their enemies.
In battle, the Greeks established a well-deserved reputation for their unsurpassed bravery and unshakable commitment to victory.....these dudes were the epitome of DURTI....
The key to their overwhelming success on the battlefield had far more to do with how the Greek commanders motivated the warriors than it do with issues of tactics or training. The Greeks were "master motivators" who understood how to use a “dramatic demonstration” to infuse a “Durti" spirit of commitment into the heart of every warrior.

Once the warriors had been offloaded from their boats onto their enemy’s shore, the Greek commanders would shout out their first order, “Burn the boats!” What the?????
The sight of burning boats removed any notion of retreat from their hearts and any thoughts of surrender from their heads.

Imagine the tremendous psychological impact on the soldiers as they watched their boats being set on fire!!!.....
As the boats turned to ash and sank out of sight into the water, each man understood there was no turning back and the only way home was through victory.....Time to Get DURTI!!

Our battles are not fought with weapons on foreign shores, their faught within the spaces between our ears. ....and like another book I once read...you can’t afford the luxury of a negative thought!!

If I find myself being pushed around mentally by thoughts of fear, anxiety, self-doubt and worry, I say to myself...Time to get Durti and “burn the boat”

So much great stuff to write about!!

I hope everyone reading this had an awesome xmas and a wicked New Year!! 2011 is going to be a wild and fun ride! So many great opportunitys happening!